Monday, June 29, 2009



Friday, June 26, 2009

true blood

after watching the first episode of true blood AND the first 2 minutes of the second epsiode.. i dont think i can look at porn OR vampires the same way ..


Wednesday, June 24, 2009


on that b.o.b tip.

well its almost july and i'm pretty sure its gonna be very stressful.. and i wont even be home. since my summer school is 3902423984 miles away from my house im gonna be staying at my cousins place pretty much for the month, it'll be like kingsway.. well acutally nothign can compare to kignsway, this is more like a long slumber party.. with a shit load of studying and reading.. ah whatever.. it'll pay off for next year, either a spare or photography, comp tech design, er music.. ah i wish i had first semester music though, it seems so fun.. stupid kingsway had to have a shitty band ): .. on a different note, i'm failing at being a vegetarian .. i think im going to start.. TOMORROW. if not then the next day.. etc..


Sunday, June 21, 2009

last night..

my weekend has been insaaaaaanely busy.. even to the point where my clothes are all over hte floor.. leaving my whole clearning day a waste .. WELLLLL.. my room is clean just not the floor.. cause you cant see that.. but yeah, so i slept over my OLDOLDDD bestfriends house after the crawford grad cause it was late.. and well it was acutally really good, caught up and talked, n for once i acutally REALLY REALY wanted to stop drinking, smoking.. etc. well not at once cause thats just going too fast.. but one step at a time kinda thing.. just calm down for a bit and get back to the summer where i strived myself to go to church, when i started to read the bible every night and choose a favourite verse kinda thing ALSO i think im gonna go back to the vegetarian thing too.. haha well it worked for am onth till i decided to eat meat once a week.. but thats not working, especially cause i am filippino and there will always be chicken adobo on the table.. we'll see how this goes (:


Friday, June 19, 2009

update 1.5

well i still havn't fixed it but yeah.. i decided to take my last vent post out i did a few min ago cause i'v calmed down .. guess i just needed that music therapy.



wanted to try somethign out .. but it looks kinda weird.. i'll fix it when i have time


Thursday, June 18, 2009


[ now i just refuse to be your typical ordinary, run-of-the-mill, garden variety lover .. ]

musiq soulchild, like an addiction of sleeping pills just for the mind.

so it took me a good 5 hours to clean my room, and i sorta still am cleaning .. well i keep getting sidetracked.. like now, and its been a YEAR since iv FULLY cleaned my room, but anyways, it was a good idea, cause i found an sd card thats been under a bunch of my ex's shit fer a good 2 years, i also found some costa blanca heels i didn't kno about, i found some christmas cards i forgot to give.., i found a shitload of full tissue boxes under my bed(explains why i dont have any tissue in my room, and if i do, its toilet paper), I FOUND MY FRIGGING POKMEON PEARL GAME filled with hacked stuff i thought i'd never get back, and i found my fav exacto knife w/ the extra blades. i'm on a roll (:

i also found a razer(UN-USED), i dont shave cause i dont gotta.., so.. ALL YOU GIRLIES W/ HAIRY LEGS, or whatever you gotta shave.., GET AT ME !

last but not least.. i found my all black adidas SHOE i ahvn't seen in 2 years, and it still looks new .. i tried looking for the other one, but all i found was dust bunnies and half of my cat..


Wednesday, June 17, 2009


SURVIVED THROUGH EXAM WEEK, actually iuno but this year it just seemed more chilled, didn't have to study much but i still got the basics down, which was mostly the whole exam. soo i'm content with the effort i put in it. messy fight, but cleaned it up.. i think, pretty sure.. i highly doubt i'll be in a relationship status, haha. part of being YOUNG, i mean its neither mine or the other persons fault, its what it is, itssss .. uh, something thats not supposed to be touched during these busy times, whos there to blame. once again SUCKS FOR ME. i just need to unpack, settle down, get myself together and do my shit.

whatever school years done, now i'm just stressing over what i'm going to be doing this summer.

think i've found my summer song (A)


Friday, June 12, 2009

yay david choi

up at 2:30 in the morning, just listening to some david choi, kina grannis, randolph, aj, ..etc. some acoustics and piano to clear my mind (:



lemme sum up THE day.

my morning 7:00am to 8:00 :
-bitched at by the dean
-haunted down by the work supervisor
-bitched at by mother
-bitched at by the dean some more
-bitched at by the mother some more
-bitched AT the dean
-sleep. dont ask.
dinner time/night:
-had pizza in some uber restaurant
-had drinks, tipsy for a bit, but a subject of a conversation cut it short for me
-trying to find somethign to do on the phone while someones on the phone
-having the most horrid thoughts that stresses me out

the good thing, bsides a few i listed, was that i wasn't alone, AND I FINALLY HAVE MY OWN CELLPHONE, after months of temporary HEFTY phones, and its shits on all the phones i've had in the past : D

i dont know what to think of my birthday. and i didn't expect this post to sound like my birthday was shit, cause it wasn't all shit, just as i didn't expect my birthday to be UBER fantastic, but i didn't think it'd get like this/or even STARTED OUT like this.

i need a walk in downtown with new shoes.


Sunday, June 7, 2009

sleeeep ..

pulled off an all nighter last night.. jsut cause i couldn't sleep and i had to leave for downtown at 3am.. some volunteer stuff.. it wasn't that bad, it was okay.. slept on the floor .. lol, but yeah sorta lazy to write how my day was.. i did get to sleep in the afternoon when i got bad so is'all good.. and um i dont know why this is just stuck in my head, im really trying not to think bout it.. but really.. my question is .. why does it take FOREVER to gain trust and a SURE feeling that its gonna be JUST you, but takes only a thought to bring it all down, so fucked.. once again i'm confused and tired, i dont even know what i need right now, reassurance or what ?


Saturday, June 6, 2009


so i just realized i'm really young comparing to my old barkada ): .. and i realized my summer is piling.. so things i must do/have for the summer:

-summer school at e'z - ONE MONTH
-oshkosh - ONE WEEK
-camp olympia(hopefully) - ONE WEEK
-volunteer for blind camp - ONE/TWO WEEKS
-volunteer for vbs - ONE WEEK
-get my lisence somewhere after my birthday
-get a job and EARN money
-run missions to chill with friends ):

on top of that.. its either i go with my plans.. or throw it away and go to vegas for the whole summer.. WHICH SOUNDS SO VERY LOVELY.

summer responsibilities.. or my getaway i've been asking for too long now, plus i'll be able to be there to support my ateh ..

now i'm patiently waiting for my babe ..


Friday, June 5, 2009


this week was aight.. scary shit went down a few days ago.. ah.. two more weeks of this school then im out MAAAAYNE.. then back into a different school for summer school ): shit it took me 2 hours to figure out how to register online.. and it ended up with me using the printer.. in which i dont have.. well i do just.. it cant relaly be plugged into my laptop.. FML! .. well whatever.. this week my science presentation from the earlyer post went pretty well.. apparently i did good till i said participation instead of precipitation.. like reeally?? does it matter.. they both sound the same.. but ANYWAYS. today i caught up with ALOT of people, most of them not in person but i bumped into a 2 of my old elementary school friends.. ugh my past is digusting i hate thinking bout it ): .. well yeah, but other then that today was nice.. wwalked the dog with my babe, it was pretty fun (: warm too .. but i STILL feel fat.. i really needa get back on running..


Monday, June 1, 2009

getting there..

i aaam .. slacking once again .. i have a little more than an hour to finish my science presentation that was due last week .. yup .. well today was very interesting .. i did something that i said i wouldn't do ): im so stupid.. i dont know what im doing with my life. well whatever .. first time for everything .. ahh but now my head is throbbing .. funny thing is, i realized how bs this school is.. i dont even kno if people here are just like shit to happen so they over exagerate(iuno how to spell, to lazy to check lol) or im just being lied too, and its another immature-getting-drunk kinda thing .. for one thing .. its a shit load of people saying one thing, comparing to someone who'd never lie to me .. ugh my head hurts too much to think about it, and i acutually care bout all this cause I DO care for this person that is being targetted(well i dont know if targetted is the word. . i dont even kno if it IS a word). anyways, i just found out that exams are in two weeks WHICH MEANS. vlogs for exams (: .. this time i will be posting it up and i wont be lazy,so anybody in the video .. dont get mad at me this time .. well can't really write much cause i really dont have time, plus i've forgotten half of my day .. but STARTING TOMORROW i will begin my self discipline and stop drinking and such, cause all this is making me slack, get lazy, and drool all over my science text book.
so easily sidetracked.